I lost my smiling face.

Oh, well ... Mom is saying me that I have to say this.

'Happy New Year! I hope that this year will be wonderful for you!'

What does it mean?

I don't think that you know how was my first Christmas was.

I WAS ALONE!!!

I WAS IN A CAGE!!!

No Christmas cake, no champagne, no Mama no Papa no Uncle Sam.

Not only that, I seriously thought that I could not see Mom and Papa ever again.

I don't want to say the truth, since I'm a man, but honestly, I was crying alone.

Why?

That's a good question.

Because they left me in a training center with Mr. K and they went to California!

That is why!

Unbelievable, right?

I went to church with Papa and I was blessed by the Father ... so, I thought I'm Christian and so of course, I would have a happy Christmas day with Mom and Papa.

Well, well, well, I should stop blaming them any more.

Mom and Papa were crying when they saw me ... it seemed like they missed me a lot.

I'll forgive them.

But look at me.

I cannot make smiling face as before.

I want to smile since they came back to me.

I'm trying hard.

Actually I'm smiling, although you might not believe me.

I have more stories, I'll say good night now since it's already lights out in the dormitory and I feel I have to sleep.

(In fact, I didn't dislike the dormitory though.)

I'll write more soon.